Beauty in the 'Burbs

Another little walk with No. 3 that produced some lovely pics. We visited a collection of mushrooms across the street and we stalked a tiny butterfly in attempt to get a close-up. Working to create a little creative success everyday. Stress free and no pressure. Just love. That's my Jewish new year resolution. More love. L'Shanah Tovah. xo

A Most Honest Expression

It happens
Instantaneously
The real truth
The most honest expression
Instinct
Knowing
A blink
A flash

The voice that whispers a scream in a split second

"This is a bad decision"

"Stop"

"You are heading in the wrong direction"

"STOP!!"

But you carry on because little mouths need
Because ego needs more
Because 401k and benefits package make everyone scream hooray
Because it's the "right thing to do"
Responsible

"STOP!!"

(with hands over ears and eyes shut tight like a 10 year old whines)

"I can't hear yooouuu!"

"stop" it whispers "this isn't right"

The voice perpetuates continuously whispering screams incessantly whispering screams.

The time has come to listen, or
The voice will never go away
The answer will never be different
Move to the most honest expression
Who you are
Not who they want you to be
Who you are

Make it happen
The voice changes
It's right
Go forth
The most honest expression of G-d and faith is Love
The most honest expression is Freedom
The most honest expression is what you have to give

Fall

It's fall again
The air blows effortlessly
An ease with which I am uncomfortable
Easy makes me uncomfortable
Yet somehow I'm most hopeful now

Hope is a diminishing resource
There used to be more
I used to have it in spades
I don't see the end of the road
Or even the middle
The next exit is evasive

But somehow fall makes it seem
Less like a tragedy and more like an adventure
Life is unfolding down there somewhere
I can't see it but I know it's there
All I have to do is keep going

But I've done so much wrong
Taken short cuts and easy exits
Almost never ending up in the right place
Almost never

Today the leaves start to change
The air moves with an ease that summer doesn't understand
Something in that easy breeze tells me it's time
"For what?" I ask
"You know" it says.

Origins

Very simply this blog is meant for two purposes. The first of which is an approach to overcoming a crippling case of perfectionism that has begun to impede upon my life so voraciously that I find it difficult to enjoy myself. So I'm attacking each post with little planning and a lot of fun. This is a place for joy.

However, the initial genesis of "F" the Dishes was a number of years ago when becoming a parent scared me and I wanted to make sure that I wasn't lost in the process of parenthood, wifedom, career, etc. Therefore, again very simply, this is my place to document, share, and most importantly express my creative thoughts, ideas, projects, successes, and failures. I adore art, film, music, crafts, writing, storytelling, comedy, musicals, super heroes, reading, helping people, raising money, spirituality, open mindedness, smart and funny people, ideas, planning, doing new things, and seeing what tomorrow will hold.  xo Le Chaim - To Life!

Fun with Camera!

These shots were taken on a walk with my youngest who we like to refer to affectionately as No. 3. He told me what to shoot and I listened then I took them home and did some playing.